scribble

2006-12-02T02:08:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i blogged here!

well, i figured some might not know of my livejournal blog so i decided to blog here!

maybe i should list out the things i wanna/going to do for the next few months! in random order:
1) enjoy my prom! though it's really a chore shopping for everything. :/
2) find a job. i'm money-minded! truth is, i need to depend less on my parents.
3) enjoy my tw trip! i can't wait! it's only my 2nd time taking a plane. :D
4) take up a third language, preferably korean. or jap, or french.
5) 219's class chalet!
6) hope to go on a trip with my friends. that is, if (2) is fulfilled, and the parents don't object.
7) more active in church? and to know the yd girls better since we are forming an AG.
8) to be more focused on God.
9) to shop using my own money. like that i can shop happily mah. won't feel bad about spending other people's hard earned money.
10) to highlight my hair! but i'm not really sure about it 'cos it damages my hair. esp if there's bleaching involved. does highlighting involve bleaching? i really don't know. hmmm. how?

haha, i think the list is non-exhaustive. will add more if i remember.

reality check.

2006-09-16T18:49:00.000+08:00

oh sigh sigh.
dearest friend just reminded me of homework.

so reality check. i have :
1. VJ math prelim paper 1
2. PJ GP AQ qn
3. Chem assignment
4. may read ionic equilibrium for quiz.
5. and ACJC econs DRQ? not sure.

and i need to revise my work!
i'm starting to forget my KTs and SS.
DIE!

actually i'm more worried for math now.

SMILE PASTA =D

2006-08-06T22:53:00.000+08:00

王心凌-彩虹的微笑

天空是绵绵的糖
就算塌下来又怎样
深呼吸甩开悲伤
生气想爆炸就大声唱

爱很easy 很easy
ye~~~~
心情很easy 很easy
喔~~~
梦很easy 很easy
ye~~~
笑一笑没什么大不了
喔~~~

雨下再大又怎样
干脆开心的淋一场

天空是绵绵的糖
就算塌下来又怎样
雨下再大又怎样
干脆开心的淋一场

彩虹是微笑的脸
难过就抬起头大声唱

爱很easy 很easy
ye~~~~
心情很easy 很easy
喔~~~
梦很easy 很easy
ye~~~
笑一笑没什么大不了
喔~~~~

天空是绵绵的糖
就算塌下来又怎样
雨下再大又怎样
干脆开心的淋一场

easy easy
easy easy
easy easy
easy easy

爱很easy 很easy
ye~~~~
心情很easy 很easy
喔~~~
梦很easy 很easy
ye~~~
笑一笑没什么大不了
喔~~

天空是绵绵的糖
就算塌下来又怎样
雨下再大又怎样
干脆开心的淋一场

彩虹是微笑的脸
悲伤bye bye
快乐不需要理由

This song is really very upbeat!
makes me wanna dance to the music! (:
haha! i like the show-
微笑 pasta!

BEN&JERRY'S

2006-07-22T00:48:00.000+08:00

I LOVE BEN&JERRY'S!
went to cathay today after school for some ben&jerry's lovin'.
i had the waffle with 3 scoops of ice-cream-
chocolate fudge brownie, dublin mudslide & black raspberry!
OH MY!
I LOVE IT TO BITS!
((:
it's simply...HEAVEN!
and i so love the deco!
nice and comfy sofas to relax together with great music
and there was even a place for bands to perform at night!
i want to go there again!
such a nice to place to just relax and chit-chat
which was what siyin, shuwei and i did!
makes me forget momentarily about how terrified i am for prelims
and how i have a huge load of work waiting for me to cover during the weekends.
boo:(

anyways!
I LOVE ICE CREAMMMMM.
MORE PLEASE!
(:

seem like yesteryear.

2006-07-15T21:37:00.000+08:00

it seems like i'm stuck,
and i don't have a place that belongs to me.

2006-07-09T00:21:00.000+08:00

One week has gone by and school has started.
oh, i tell you
i find school a drag.
i have been sleeping my way through lectures so far.
i don't usually sleep in lectures; strange that i do now.
math, chem, econs. everything.
i think i have lost my soul to somewhere else! haha.
but otherwise, school has been alright.
not bad, not good.
just, fine.
it's the same old routine isn't it?
school, home, school.
well, it's like that for me.

oh, and did you know yj is selling ice-cream!
all the walls-flavoured ice-cream!
i guess it's a substitute for not being able to sell
fried food, sweets, chocolates and all the junk food
that were once sold at the bookshop!
it's quite sad right!
but ice-cream! yay.
i just ate the moo one today, though not bought from sch.
(((:

no more brazil. :(

2006-07-02T21:44:00.000+08:00

brazil lost to france.
i got a huge shock this morning in yd when i heard the news.
HOW SAD!
:(
i didn't even think they would lose!
that thought didn't ever cross my mind.
i'm devastated.
no more ronaldo.
no more kaka.
no more ronaldinho.
and i was hoping to catch them in the semi and finals.
wc isn't watchable anymore.
SADDDDDDDDDDD.

p.s stop gloating if you are alright. :(

pretty bride(:

2006-07-01T20:39:00.000+08:00

attended grace's wedding in the afternoon!
she's so so pretty (:
so happy for her!

haha,
and i also found out how,
just how-
_____________.
felt quite sad!
but it's alright! (:

anyway,
CONGRATS GRACE!
though you won't be reading this.
may God bless you and terence richly.
you will be blessed, i'm sure.

yipeee

2006-06-29T22:08:00.000+08:00

the blocks are over!
yipeeee!
haha, although i know i won't do well
but heck.
it's alright!

today's math test was dumb.
my name was in one of the questions!
magdalene=maggie.
haha so were some of my classmates' names
rodney=rodni
and shanmugah=shan
super dots rightt!
my classmates were laughing!
....

anyway after blocks i went towning!
woohoo! been quite some time since i last went!
went to catch superman returns with casan, siyin, cassidy, xuanyu and kelvin!
the movie was goooood!
i quite like it!
esp, superman's son.
he's so so so adorable.
(:
haha, it's a little bit of a spoiler.

and guess what casan and i did?
we went to pierce our ears!
so now i have 2 earholes at my right ear!
wahahahx.
but i'm trying not to let my parents know!
piercing is kinda fun actually.
hahaha.
but the stapling sound always scares me.

anyway!
i wanna watch my AQMFS!
tata~

screwed.

2006-06-27T00:08:00.000+08:00

screwed up big time for both gp and econs.
urghhhhh.
can u believe it,
that this lady here typing this entry did not attempt a 12 mark qn?!
well, it was for econs drq.
i hate international trade.
didn't bother studying properly.
and lo and behold, everything on IT came out for drq.
yay.
so this is what i get.

gp essay was horrendous.
i knew the question wasn't tough.
but my mind just kept wandering
half-way through i felt myself crapping away.
so, garnesh is going to have another extra lesson.
i think i need it, seriously.
but compre was alright!
at least i felt the questions asked were not too tough.
hope it will help in my grades.
bleh.

still left with chem and maths.
maths maths maths.
i love you. please love me back.
let me get a decent mark please.

anways,
shall study hard for chem later!
aza aza fighting!
((:

hahaha.
do you know that i'm already dreaming of what i'm going to do after 'A's!
dreaming big time.
get a life, girl.

:(

2006-06-24T17:47:00.000+08:00

i'm not in a good mood at all.

i think i'm really stupid.
i can't even memorise properly my econs.
what is happening to me!

argh.

and i just ate a whole half tub of ice-cream.
yay.
my way of de-stressing yeah?

why must i study?
i think i asked myself this question a dozen times ready.
my teacher said it's for my grandchildren.
somehow, i think it's for my own's sake.

how do i survive in this world without a proper qualification?
everything is paper.
and paper is rubbish.

arghhhhhhhh.
i hate everything about my life now.
i don't want to go church.
i don't want to go school.
i dread exams.
i wish i were sick.

i'm super stupid.

what's my aim for blocks you ask?
well, pretty simple.
i only hope i don't fail too badly.
i dread seeing the faces of my teachers.
urghhhhhhh.

material wants and needs.

2006-04-30T01:59:00.000+08:00

i decided to delete my previous entry.

and,
i can't put a password on my blog!
something's wrong with the html.

anyways, new layout up!
(:

new year!

2005-12-31T20:00:00.000+08:00

Goodbye 2005. Welcome 2006!

hoho, a year has flew past! Like any other years, this year has its ups and downs. But this year has been well, different. Firstly, it was the changing of schools from YS to NY in the 1st three months. The making of new friends all over again in a foreign and unknown place without having any close YS friend in the same school as me was tough. But I made lots of friends this year. Met lots of new people and forged friendships that will last i believe.

Then it was the switching of schools (AGAIN) from NY to YJ after the release of the 'O's. it was so cruel 'cos i was just getting used to NY! I TELL YOU, I HATE GOING TO A FOREIGN PLACE, A PLACE WHERE I'M ALONE AND DON'T KNOW ANYONE! ok, but YJ wasn't that foreign 'cos lots of my schoolmates were there. But still, the orientation and the class that i got into was foreign to me! I KNEW NO ONE! PLUS with the not-very-interesting orientation programme put up by the SC, i got really sianed. But afterall, YJ wasn't that boring 'cos i love my classs!
And then there was the heavy workload of schoolwork. it's crazyyyy and it will continue into next year. I shudder to think about it.

But i'm thankful for this year for meeting lots of new people and that He has guided me and helped me through difficult times and i got through it!

OKOKIE! RESOLUTIONS FOR 2006!
HAHA. I can't keep resolutions but i'll try.
- Be more fervent in reading God's word. I can feel myself drifting away from God as the year passes. Hope I will not be drifted away from Him!
- Not be so lazy and not procrastinate.
- STUDY HARD HARD HARD.
- Plan my time well 'cos next year will be a busy year with AWANA coming in.

moved.

2005-08-27T14:23:00.000+08:00

MOVED.

http://livejournal.com/~chocolatefight

link me there. if you like, tata~

TO THE DEAREST ROYAL PRINCESS

2005-08-21T21:24:00.000+08:00

okie, this post is dedicated to miss eleanor ho peimin, the royal princess of ???
hahahaha. so here goes.

Eleanor, she's my bestestestestest friend and buddy in church. hahaha. If she isn't going to church, neither do i feel like going. okie, i will go to church, but will be lonely. * sings mr lonely* yahhh. Always together with her. i wonder how i'm going to survive if you go australia to studieee! i can't remember how we got to know each other, as in how we got to be so close. and when she's upset, i will know. HEE! OH YAH! she's as crazy as anything! ALWAYS goes around hitting people! PLEASE! it hurts! esp since i'm especially bone-y. Hmmm. oOoOH. 1st three months same school! so was closer then! hahahaha. now drifted away a little! YAH! *sobs* cos you keeps things from meee! saddd. oh yah, please continue with your letter writing. HAHAHAHA.

obs grp pic!

2005-08-07T23:49:00.000+08:00

obs- raleigh & battuta- buddy watches! (: we rock! thanks casandra! heh!

shitty results

2005-08-05T00:21:00.000+08:00

My resolution! [at least for the next 2-3 months] is to work hard to improve from a D O F for econs, maths and chem respectively to a B C D.

people, please motivate me to STUDY if you see that i'm slacking online.
PLEASE.

i don't want to repeat jc1 all over again. it's arduous.

let's get it started

2005-07-30T23:46:00.000+08:00

ndp preview was boring
i was still tired and exhausted
totally shagged
maybe that's why it was boring

haizzzzzz

neeed to studiee chem now
bloody test on mon. why mon?!
chemical bonding and IMF
i will just dieeee if i don't pass this test
or at least don't let me fail too badly
i need to pull up my F grade

so...
let's get it started.

obs- the aftermath?

2005-07-29T15:09:00.000+08:00

hey people!
guess what?!
i'm backkkkkkkk from obs!
=)) geeez.
obs was good good
hmmm. shall blog from the 1st day!

day 1 woke up really early to get to yj. was late as usual tho' I woke up early! Haha! the wait at the jetty for boats to get us to ubin was HORRENDOUSLY LONG. We waited for about an hour I guess? Heh. No watch! haha. So we reached camp 2 (the mobile course) after that. We got our groupings and was kinda sad that our class was splited into half. it was supposed to be a class/group thingy but in the end, 5 went to the battuta watch while 6 went to raleigh watch. very very very sad. So yeah, i'm in battuta- sounds like a tribal name eh?- hahahaha. hmmm, we had kayaking after settling all the random stuff. kayaking was fun! and yah, that was what we did for the day. and know what. We pitched our tents at night in the forest. hahha. cos we were too slow in everything. our instructor told us to say this "we are faster than we know" everyday before we sleep. ahahahaha.

day 2 mrs lim came to visit us! hahaha and she brought sweets. so nice of her. lol. we packed some stuff into the obs backpack and after lunch, we began trekking to some ulu place which is our campsite for the day. trekked for very very very long time. i wonder how long. and my bag was so super heavy! hmm, and we pitched our tents around evening~night with a little light only. torchlights are very very impt. haha.

day 3 in the morning, we had to build a raft for all of my watch to sit in! We went to the quarry sitting on our raft! the water was fresh and we didnt bathe the day before so it was very very goood to be in fresh water! afternoon- we had our sea expedition! We had to kayak to camp 1 (residential area) from where we were and it took the whole afternoon for us to reach there! but it was the really good! I think the best kayaking experience ever! [the' I was kind scared by my partner but we changed partners later] and we reached camp 1! camp 1 is super good. facilities were all great, food was considered good too! So much different from camp 2!

day 4 we had rock climbing! climbed half the wall, partnering with casandra! a belt was buckled between us and we had to climb up together! it was a test of endurance and cooperation! and we had flying fox later! FLYING FOX WAS SUPER GOOOD! I LOVE IT! wanna try it again! after that, we trekked back to camp 1 [bleahhh haha]. reached there and we managed to pitch our tents before night time! WAHHH!. hahaha.

day 5 Last day! kind happy because I was missing home! woke up early to packed out tents, washed our stuff and clean the stall and stuff. We had our final games together as yjc. it was fun! jigsaw puzzles all mixed up everywhere! Hew. took our photos and certs and went to buy tees! So happy! I bought 3! :)) and after that we were on our way back to singapore!

the watch i'm in had two classes. so we didnt really bond until the last 2 days. yup. hmmm, not very used to the computer now. hahaa. and I need some good fooood!

obs!

2005-07-24T22:30:00.000+08:00

hey hey
obs tomorrow
kinda excited!
hope it will be funn!
seeya peeeps after my obs!
((:

i need a break-

2005-07-21T23:54:00.000+08:00

i stayed in school till 9pm today
i can't believe it.
this is what pw does to all of us.
so horrid. they deprived me of my sleep!
and i'm so so tired!
and here i am, still doing pw
-at home. haixxxx.

and there's obs next week.
don't know whether to look forward to it
-or not.
so many things incompleted.
how to enjoy?!
horrible horrible!

[just sidetracking]
i hate cats! they are scary!
they are worse than roaches!

crushing it-

2005-07-20T20:42:00.000+08:00

i so hate pw.
it sucks.
EoM and Written Report to be in
by friday.
and Mario is so inefficient.
so many things to do.
helllppp.

coffee please?

2005-07-16T23:51:00.000+08:00

hmmm, changed my layout again.
just a very simple and plain one.
not very nice. i know.
i did some modifications.
changed the picture to this coffee one
and did some changes to my links, title
size and type of font used.

today kinda boring.
slept through the day.
kinda feel that it's because of
all of the accumulated hours of
my much needed sleep that caused me
to sleep through today.
woke up feeling more refreshed than any
other days!
=))
so it was really good in a way!

friday!

2005-07-15T21:45:00.000+08:00

i love fridays! ((:
hmmm, we made flowers for our chinese teacher today!
she's leaving for china to study! -sob sob-
gonna miss her!
heh heh. and i finally know how to make a rose
using crepe paper!
cheers to me ((:

was supposed to surprise our teacher w the flowers.
we were at the study corner and she happened to walk pass
and so in the end she saw it! hahaha.
booo. so no more surprise! hahaha
but anyway, we took photos! with the flowers!
((:

Results results.

2005-07-14T21:42:00.000+08:00

i failed two subjects- AO F. looking at it, it ain't that bad. haha. because it's normal to fail in jc! ((: just workk harder for promos! i'm just glad i passed my econs! hee. oh and know what! YJ is super DOTSSS la. AO : 40-49 F: 39 and below. It isn't like this in other schools! hmph! so that explains why i got a F for chem! hmph!

just thinking a lot

2005-07-11T20:30:00.000+08:00

just wann write down some thoughts that i've been feeling

1) hardcores i feel that i'm not as close to you people as in the past. we seem to have lesser and lesser things in common and i don't see yall as often now. even if i do meet you people, i have nothing much to say to yall. when you people are chatting, i feel left out. i have no idea what yall are laughing about too. you all seemed to have so many many things in common which i don't have with you. sometimes, i don't know why i'm there. you love mangas, animes. i don't. i only know more about you all when i read your blogs. maybe, i chose to distanced myself from you all.

2) eleanor i don't really talk to you as often now! though we meet in church but then we talk lesser now!

3) cheryl ahhh, we've been so so busy. really wanna meet up with youu! ((=

4) weimin & xinyi though we see each other in school, but we seldom have time to chat already! must must meet up to go out toooo! (errr, not sure if you will read.)

5) hannah ok, you will definitely not be reading this. but when are you leaving?!

Monday AGAIN.

2005-07-10T22:08:00.000+08:00

kids are horrible.
really horrible.
they shocked me.
and traumatised me.
i wonder if i was like this last time.
today BWS was reaaaaallly...scary.
the kids were soooo noisy and naughty
i can't stand it!! grrrr.
glad i only see them twice every 2 months.

sighhhhh.
sch again tmr.
have GP test! and tmr is chem day!
chem pract, lecture & tutorial.
alll tmr. scaryyy..

whole week.

2005-07-08T23:47:00.000+08:00

chinese oral today was alright! yipeee. nyjc's chinese teachers were our invigilators! and zhang lao shi was my invigilator! haha. kinda surprised! pleasantly surprised. haha. and if you don't know, i cut my hair on mon together with shuwei! hahaa. and we toook neoprints after the haircut! lol! shall load the pics next time!

crap

2005-07-07T22:24:00.000+08:00

the beginning of a new school term proved too much for me. block tests results was really bad. my class did badly too. i think my class will just disappear next year b'cos all of us will just either be retained, dropped out or go to MI (except for 1 or 2 who may be promoted). really depressing man. just think: wasting my parents' money studying and then drop out after that to go elsewhere and waste a year like that. no no. i don't want that.

eom is stupid too. i can't find the publisher's and author's info. horribly bad. even for my pw, i think im gonna do badly. band 4 is really within my reach. chinese oral tmr. not even prepared for it. need to hand up my eom tmr. it's not possible.

initial D

2005-07-03T00:15:00.000+08:00

initial D
1. edison is super shuai!! (:
2. edison is the most shuai of all! (:
3. jay looks really funny when he is am-chio-ing.
4. jay isn't as shuai as compared to edison! muhahahaa.
5. shawn yue isn't too bad too!
6. i rate the show 3/5 stars.
7. it was quite hilarious. action packed/comedy!
8. car racing gets boring after a while though.
9. the ending was abrupt.
10. and i hate it.
11. but i heard that part II is coming up!
12. edison rocks!

i'm back! ((:

2005-07-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

helllo! i'm bacccckkkk from my block tests! (: heee! block tests was horrible but i would rather NOT talk about it! There are better stuff to talk about than tests! hahaha! Princess Charmaine was so sweet to give me and my class a box of chocs in celebration of the end of tests! so sweeet of her! and the chocs are from germany! REALLY YUMMY STUFF. (:

today was great! went back to school for cca. the horrrible entrepreneurship club [grrrrrr]. We had to help pack the PE shirts and shorts according to the classes. CRAP! annnndddd there was SO MUCH WORK. spent almost 3 freaking hours packing the clothes. and, it's excluding those classes who haven't paid up! that means we may still need to pack the clothes next week! siigggghhh. But the youth day concert the school put up for us were greaaaaat! (: very very very funnnny performances! hahaha. and the teachers can play the piano so fabulously welll! awesome stufff. heh. headed to j8 after that and then to siyin's house to play maplestory! ahaha. i'm lousy. LOL.

yay! tomorrow can finally meeet up with the hardcores!

[edit] new links! charmaine&wayening! plus natalie imbruglia: shiver!

hiatus

2005-06-20T17:00:00.000+08:00

hiatus

i'm getting worried for my block test
aaah.
i feel like i have so many things
NOT DONE!
aaah.
i haven't studied for anything!
homework is in a mess!

okies, so shall come online lesser now.
and i'm not blogging till exam ends.
everyone jiayou for exam!
(:

i'm just a nobody

2005-06-17T23:54:00.000+08:00

I'm nobody really.
Just a little rat named Rattus,
Running the infamous rat race.

I'm the good old rational rat.
Running in my own little lane.
I never do anything out of line,
Never disturb the cat,
Never offend my own race.

Perhaps you're wondering,
Rats were cruel rats were bad,
Rats chew furniture and make housewives mad,
How could I be, a good old rat?

Well my Mama told me,
That I'm called Rattus and I'm just another
Rat.
But if I be a goody goody one,
Run my little race,
Never to step out of my own lane,
Be good work hard,
I would get to the center of the maze.
Find the cheese,
And become somebody.
Somebody.
Somebody Someday.

Well it's been years since
I've seen my mama.
But her voice still rings in my head.
Ever since we've been separated,
I've come to this weirdo scientist's lab.
So everyday I just run and run and run.
Never find the cheese,
But never mind,
I'll keep running,
Be good work hard,
I'll get the cheese someday.
Someday.

When I get the cheese
I bet all the other rats will go mad.
Maybe that would be the day the mad scientist would let me go back!
Go back to you, my mama.
Then I could curl up against you again.
Like we never separated before.
Mama,
Do you know how much your little rat.
Your little Rattus,
misses you?

But it's okay it's all right,
I'll run my little race well.
Be good work hard,
I'll keep to my own lane.
Never step out of line.
And soon enough I'll get to the center of the maze.
Get the big BIG cheese,
I hear it's gigantic, they say!

And then I'll return to you mama.
Back to the fields of the
golden daffodils.
Marry a sweet little female rat,
And have lots of little 'uns.
Just like you had me mama.
Just like you had me.

But first I need to keep running.
Run and run and run.
Until I get to the center,
Become the winner,
Become that somebody you wanted me to become,
That somebody, mama.

But well,
Until then, I'm a nobody really.
Just a little rat named Rattus.

Running the rat race...

[i got it from somewhere.]

mr&mrs smith rocks!

2005-06-16T23:14:00.000+08:00

watched mr & mrs smith today!
it's reaaaaally GOOD! GREAT!
the chemistry between them(brangelina) is there
the show is really funny too!
and i love all those explosions, fights & gunshots,
and everything...!
though it's a little confusing at times.
heheh.
and i think they are hot.
((:

went bugis village after that
uhh, first time there,
really sotong la.
hahahaha.
went parco later
think we embarrassed ourselves.
ah. shall not mention.
and after that shuwei wanted to go OG.
so we went and bought her polo tee.
and i wanted to go home after that.
and she told me she needed to buy dinner.
so we went to macs. and then she needed to get a drink.
so we walked to 7-11
even further and further away from the bus-stop!
dotz la. i ended up reaching home 730.
missed half of my show! sadded.
hahahaha.

think i wasted one whole week.
didn't do much except
econs-mcqs.
even that, i'm still having problems.
haixxxx.
you need to study.

day out w min & xin

2005-06-14T11:41:00.000+08:00

sentosaa today!
day out with weimin&xinyi
finally went outttt w them.
did some catching up!

=))

i wanna have a 4e6 class gathering
[!!!!!!!!!!!!!]

sorry,
couldn't join the hardcores today
was really tired.
but i'm sure y'all had fun
even w/o me
cos i don't make a difference!
hahahaha.

can't join y'all tmr too!
arghhh. i wanna go kbox!
but y'all have fun la!
((=

novena!

2005-06-11T20:48:00.000+08:00

hmmmmmmm,
saw a really nice adidas shoe just now!
funky and cool! purple-ish! haha.
but uhhh- it's for kids.
=((

heheh
i bought yummy yummy
chocolate with peanut flavoured pocky!
i know you're jealous, shuwei! hahah.

boohoohoo

2005-06-11T15:26:00.000+08:00

i'm bored bored bored.
it's only 3.40pm.

sick.

2005-06-08T22:16:00.000+08:00

arghhhhhh
sick.
fever 38.38 C, leaking nose and sorethroat.
GREAT ME.
i have such low immunity level.
feeling so drowsy after all the pills
that i have popped.
had so many panadols today.
so scary too.
fortunately i didn't went to franni's birthday
if not i will surely faint
was having fainting spells
on the way home
scary.
seen a doctor!
feeling much much better

went orchard with cheeki, euny and crispy
felt really really sick
but was quite fun at toy 'r' us.
haha.
and yeah! i got an A for MATHS
and cheeki was scary
or rather im questioning my faith.
great. the dan brown book
angels and demons
is so anti-christ
someone help me refute back to cheeki!
he's too santanic!!

airrporrrt-

2005-06-07T20:44:00.000+08:00

woke up at 5
met crispy and vinny
to send von off to taiwan
dots.
taxi fare was crazy-ness.
surcharge fares the worst
i've ever seen.
very very scary.
reached changi at 550
[???!!!!]
madness yeah.
felt so sleepy and sick.
after sending von off,
euny, crispy, sweez, vinny and qihao
send me off.
weird.
they were standing in one line
bidding goodbye.
weird.
858 ride wasn't good
was late for school [expected]
hahaha
others were even later.
hahaha
true enough i fell sick.
great me.
didn't know i was so prone
to falling sick.
think i said something wrong
accidentally.
just blabbered out everything
and didn't really know
how they felt.
errh. too late.
i blabbered everything
then she told me.
haixxxxx.
i'm damn insensitive.
so sorry mann.

hmmmmmmmmm

2005-06-06T20:03:00.000+08:00

HEY. I MAY NOT BE ABLE TO SEND VON OFF!
AHHHH..
Von! i wanna send you off! haha. but i have classes and i don't wanna skip econs! hmmmm.

SCHOOL TODAY WAS HORRIBLE. Lessons stretched from 8am till 5pm with only lunch as my break. WAH. REALLY CANNOT TAKE IT MANNN. I NEED TO SLEEP. (=

dedicated solely to yvonne =)

2005-06-05T16:36:00.000+08:00

solely to the toddler
VON! so nice of you to write me a message in your blog. hahaha.
ehh! hope you have a safe trip to taiwan!
and yeah, have fun la! hahaha.
prezzzies pleassseeee.
i'm quite a good friend eh =)

lonely, no more?

2005-06-04T01:13:00.000+08:00

realised that i wasn't the only one feeling like this, my friend feels it too. kind of erm, sad, for both of us i guess. ha. it's like you're physically there, with everyone, but somehow, you feel lonely. I tried and am still trying but it's just so difficult. The feeling is even worse when everyone else is all happy and smiley
while you're not.

school, holidays..

2005-06-01T19:03:00.000+08:00

hey!
my tagboard is getting active again! :):)

had math test today! i'm confident i will pass!
yay! no more horrible F(meaning fail) maths!
something to be happy!

anyway, this june doesn't seem like a holiday
school, tutorials and tests, and more tests after june hols.
hmmm, think i need a break someday sometime.
anyone free to catch a movie?

ooh! and i need help for chinese pw!
can someone help me interview their friends from china?

bored.

2005-05-29T16:41:00.000+08:00

at my auntie's house now
had some mishap
argh, so now i'm bored & sleepy.
msn isn't working,
stupid old version.
downloading the newer version
and it's taking forever. argh.
yay. so now it's finally downloaded.
but where has everyone gone to?!

CHINESE YES CHINESE!!

2005-05-27T16:56:00.000+08:00

helllo! My day didn't start off well but it ended well today! I passed my chinese compo test, and passed well too! REALLY HAPPY! 42/70! after failing for 3 consecutive times, I FINALLY PASSED WELL! well above the 40 mark! YAY! =) really happy because I really thought I was going to fail. still got lots to improve on, but guessed it made me not dislike chinese now. YAY! I still have hope! i have renewed faith( is it supposed to be used like this?) in chinese and myself now! YAY! YAY! it really really did end my day WELL after a bad start in the morning which i don't wanna mention anything (makes me get more agitated) and made me forget the stttuuuupppiid maths and how much i hate myself). gonna work hard for chinese to do even better!

i wanna watch gedou! when can i get to watch..?

Really upset, with myself.

2005-05-26T21:02:00.000+08:00

Changed template again.
guess this template really suits my mood now.
damn, I so really hate myself.
what is wrong with me?!

help!!

2005-05-23T20:20:00.000+08:00

someone HELP!!
What's wrong with the tagboard??

i walked home alone

2005-05-23T00:26:00.000+08:00

i don't understand why everytime when a whole big group of us want to decide on something, we have to spend the whole time just thinking of where to go and what to eat. we can just stand there for the whole day and i can't stand it. this applies to everyone!!! my classmates, the hardcores. everyone. ahhhh. it just piss me off la and i get really irritated and my attitude will be horrible. ahhhhh..

and i walked home alone in the dark just now. because the bus services stopped. haiz. fortunately, my dad waited for me at the bus stop.

Hardcore rocks!

2005-05-22T00:21:00.000+08:00

School hasn't been good. demoralised. recently flunked my maths horribly, the maths which i liked so much and did so well. got an F. haiz. all the careless mistakes! i actually see twentieth as twelfth. GREAT ME.

nvm, i will make sure i pass for my June tests! jia you to me!

and just wanna say
HARDCORE ROCKS!
happy to see them again! lol

bleah

2005-05-16T22:05:00.000+08:00

bleah.
cut = not cut

that person cheated my $$$.
i'm not going back.

sigh. when reality sinks in.

2005-05-15T00:28:00.000+08:00

i realised that i shouldn't even take chem.
i'm not even a science person!
i should and most probably had took history
if not for the boring topics i studied for
1st three months.

shucks. regretting. cos i failed my chem test
which was super easy. i know it is. plus i can't do my tutorials.
well done, Magdalene.

You made me think. My heart fluttered.

2005-05-14T01:27:00.000+08:00

met up with cheryl esther hannah xinying willy!
great peeps! happy to see them! =)

chem SPA!

2005-05-09T20:56:00.000+08:00

I'm so so screwed. My chem SPA calculations sucks. I know it's easy to calculate, but I just don't know how to! ahhhhh. sadded. and it's A level SPA. haiz. But not to worry, there's still another 7 more practicals! :)

Went town today with Shuwei to see her puma bag! it's kinda nice! lol. i'm like so so blur at town. Don't know how to walk. lol. while she knows the place like the back of her hand. -_-"

HELP! I HAVE GEEPEE! HOW TO DO?!

night market!!

2005-05-06T19:24:00.000+08:00

I SIMPLY ABSOLUTELY LURVVEE FRIDAYS! been looking forward to it since tuesday. This week has been hectic! so many things to do. Just glad that it's friday! :)

There's a huge pasar malam down at my house here! i'm feeling all so hyped-up by it! hahahahah! I WANNA GO BUY FOOODIE! and wanna go shop there! wanna eat muah chee. i'm feeling hungry! hahahhaha!

watching at the dolphin's bay now! the show is nice nice. tata..

when you say nothing at all

2005-05-05T23:05:00.000+08:00

helllooo! just got myself a new template! =) Butterflies nice! heh.

Msn messenger 7 is interesting. i'm very suaku, i know.
hahahaha

HAPPY LABOUR DAY!

2005-05-01T21:54:00.000+08:00

it's the beginning of a new month, which means more things yet undone and needs to be done. :X

yd today was kinda alright. was discussing about what kinda jobs is suitable for a christian and what's not. Lawyers, doctors, bankers, actors all are some things we need to think about. hmmm. Grace was talking about her being a corporate lawyer and the amount of stress she have to handle. it's scary. and they were saying that if we calculate the amount of money a lawyer get paid per hour, people working in Macs earn more than them! woooot.

and i got quite a scare by my dad's friend. he was telling me about geepee. ok, fine. i admit i don't really know much about current affairs but you don't need to scare me like that. i was almost close to tears because i was super scared by him and geeeepeeee. adds on to my streesss. and yeah, my mood went dowwnnnn. i gonna read more. yeah.

after that headed to town to get my bag! yay! it's still there! hahaha. the last bag! i'm happpy! hee =D

Finally there's a holiday tomorrow and there isn't school! gonna finish up all the undone and untouched tutorials tomorrow. and urgh, study for tests. shall try to squeeze in time to finish up everything, i hope!

*chem test redox
*maths test sigma, AP
*econs essay
*chem tutorials/worksheets
*PI considered done :)
*chinese PW i have no idea

well, gonna do chem now. tata.

i am racing against time

oh yup! happy labour day to all :)

tired

2005-04-29T23:48:00.000+08:00

my third post for 3 consecutive days.

HAPPY 17th BIRTHDAY RENHAO! =)
there seem to be many april babies..

I wanna get that versatile bag from far east!
sad, left with only 2! gonna be gone when i go buy it.
I wanna go shopping too! to hula and co to get that vintage looking longs.

i need serious help with my PI.

booo

2005-04-28T19:45:00.000+08:00

boohoo.
:(
i still went back to the starting point afterall.
everything went wrong today, since morning.
dad didn't wait for me and left the house with my brother.
chinese pw grouping was horrible even though we were allowed to choose our own groups. let's just say i was "sort of" left alone.
something went wrong with the reagent for titration. but chem teacher was kind though.

this feeling ain't good.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! =)

2005-04-27T22:59:00.000+08:00

don't know if you're reading this, but..
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YINGHUI!=)
hahaha, hope ya be happy always! heheheh.

went out to celebrate yinghui's birthday with the nanyang gang today! i just erm, realised that joshua is super lame. no wonder he is part of the group! hahahah. and yvonne is sooo wols. i'm actually quite wols, but she's worse. yeahh. hahaha and cheekiang and yvonne were like having a heated debate that yvonne is evil. erh. haha. everyone is still as crappy man..like vinny. lol. i'm just happy to see all of them! =)

hmmm, school today was hectic cos i was like so so confused over chem and we had a quiz too. in the end, i asked xinyi and weimin to help me with it. THANKS SO SO MUCH! econs was not very good too cos we were learning how to write essays and it sucks. WE HAVE TO WRITE AT LEAST 5 PAGES FOR A QUESTION! ????!!!!! ahhhhhhh..I should go knock myself against a wall. oh and we flopped gp presentation. haiz. i think i'm the worse of all. but owell, at least it's over.

Maths beckons.

2005-04-24T15:31:00.000+08:00

saturday
firstly,
I have got to say that
Yvonne made my day! =)
she was so super funny!
hahahhaaa
her brain is like all messed-up
she got all her facts wrong
and she took pure history before!
hahahahhaa.
hmmm, actually what really happened huh?
i kinda forgot!!!
ohh, she was reading my TIME magazine
on the japan-china conflict thing and
that's where everything started.
she began asking qns that erm, shocked us.
like, what is dictatorship? and what's pedra branca?
are japan-china fighting over water? -_-"
shuting, vinny, crispy and me almost fainted.
vinny was like really funny cos he couldn't believed it
hahaha then after that we tricked her
by saying that mexico and canada are fighting over pedra branca
and UN promotes war. she also mixed up iceland and ireland!
and the casino thing! yess, a casino is being built in bishan! yeah! haha
and after that everyone else came to know about it
and she was malu-ated. lol.

yeah, and i did my econs with lots of questions unanswered. I simply have NO IDEA how to do. hahaha, but yesterday was really funny. and we refused to open the door for yinghui, eunice, ck, joshua and lavid to come in. hahahahahah. cheekiang was also really impressed with crispy's multi-talentness. partly cos he wasn't taking econs as a subject and yet he taught shuting how to do econs!! hahaha. ck said he may have to go to the waterloo street to beg for money by playing the guitar which crispy taught him how to play. hahaha. he owe his ricebowl to crispy! lol.

and we went to the pasar malam at j8 after dinner! eunice spent about 10 bucks there. lol. pls burn for me the cd! hahaha. THANKS! kinda nice walking! haha.

sunday
there wasn't any yd today! :) hahaha had a great time fellowshipping with my yd-mates! haha, had brownies yummmy! some of them can reaaaally eat! was really great! we should have more of this! hahah.

but after church i was feeling really tired and sleepy and wanted to go home but my parents was like chatting away. haha. was feeling kinda grouchy and all. had lunch and of them threw twigs into the drain and thus making the already blocked and choked up drain even more choked up. dotss. hahaha

study grp w umoja

2005-04-23T23:33:00.000+08:00

exhausted/

2005-04-20T19:42:00.000+08:00

exhausted.
very very exhausted.
tutorials slowly, surely
and frighteningly piling up

been doing my PI since last week
and.. still doing. yup.
just pray and hope that my PI
won't be rejected

econs teacher likes picking on me
which i really wonder WHY!
always calling me to answer questions
arrrrggghh.

ok, for now.
● chinese spelling to study
● chinese compo to read through
cos well, i failed my compo and need
to find my mistakes. Actually, i went
out of point.
● ahhh yes, PI! i'm doing it now! (:
● econs worksheet
● maths tutorial
● chem tutorial
that's all for now! :)

PW

2005-04-18T23:07:00.000+08:00

i'm doing PW yet again
i'm forever doing it! haizz.
i might just die of doing my PI
it seems endless.

i think i should propose to moe to stop implementing new things. it just get worse. that's why if given a choice, i don't wanna stay here.

how did it turn out like this?

2005-04-16T15:12:00.000+08:00

i was at a friend's blog just now and i wanted to tag at my friend's tagboard, but then i realised that i actually have nothing to say to this friend at all. i wanted to say something, but when i typed it out, i felt that i wasn't helping at all. what i wanted to say was what everyone would say to this friend. and so i erased it off.

and i felt sad, i don't know why. i suddenly feel that we have drifted. how did it turn out like this?

anyway,
HAPPY SWEET 17th BIRTHDAY, CHERYL!
know you're out celebrating, hope you're having fun! :)
we'll meet up sometime soon, i hope. hahaha.

okaaays, back to pw. i still don't know what to do for my PI! help..

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2005-04-15T18:24:00.000+08:00

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ramblings

2005-04-14T18:05:00.000+08:00

today was basically alright :) my ct finally finally got my name correctly! haha, i'm so happy. lol. and econs today wasn't as bad as the previous tutorials, maybe because today was the only day i had econs tutorial! haha. yeah, and i was called to answer some question. scared me. but i answered correctly so heng. and i'm the maintainence rep. damn. kena sabotaged by shuwei! but maintainence quite slack la, cos i have to do the duty roster but since we don't have a permanent classroom then there's nothing much to do! muhahahhaa.

oh, and chinese today was super funny! hahaha. we had chinese spelling and the teacher is supposed to give the meaning and we write the word down, but throughout the test, some of us shout out the answers for everyone and almost all of us copied from each other. hahahaha, the teacher was like saying that she wanna deduct marks from us. lol. but the chinese teacher was kinda good anyway. hahaha. and we were laughing and doing the test and she was like saying this was the weirdest class who can laugh while doing test. not scared at all. hahahhaaa.

tmr is friday again! happy. heh. but i have gp-pw PI to do! arghhh. i still have no idea what to do..

east coast park

2005-04-13T18:58:00.000+08:00

there wasn't any school today for me cos my ct went to east coast park :) was kinda fun cos i was skating and we played some games like zong ji mi ma and some people had to eat gross and disgusting stuff. eeek. i ate really yummy stuff, haha. lucky for me. yup, and the sea is really reaallly nice! i love the sea breeze and the so nice view! :) only that some mosquitos fed on my sweet bloood and it was so itchy. argh. oh yeah, and the bus ride to east coast took us around an hour. so longgg.

though it was kinda fun, however, the feeling wasn't the same as when we had our class gathering for 05A1. i don't know, sometimes it is just weird. the feeling. they're all really nice people, but somehow, it's just different. and i really miss 05a1! but sometimes i think they forget about me, val and rebecca. they only remember cheeky. sad but true.

but like my friend said, it's just for 2 years, it will fly past in a blink of an eye. i hope so.

back to the normal routine

2005-04-10T15:08:00.000+08:00

it's back to the normal routine again- tomorrow. studying and rushing to finish off my 1st three months tutorials and trying hard to understand econs. sigh.

went to shuting's house yesterday! our gang is expanding- to people that i don't know but now i know. haha. was great meeting up with them and hearing those crap stuff some of them said. read shuting's blog if ya wanna know. yep :)

i need to go pia my tutorials and study econs. urghh! i reeaaaallly having a difficult time with econs. and i skipped econs lecture on friday. damn, apparently, some tamil teacher saw me and my two other friends not going for lecture. well, we were already late so we decided not to go into the auditorium to embarrass ourselves. how did we know some teacher would saw us????!?!!!! sighh, hope my ct don't know about it cos she's my econs teacher! ahhhh. horror. and yeah, i have no common sense la, cos many said econs is common sense. haha.

happy!

2005-04-07T18:00:00.000+08:00

yeahh!
i'm happy cos it's
FRIDAY tomorrow!
yay yay! yayness!
:))

school has been stressful yup, still not catching up with econs especially.
chinese compo test tomorrow, chem block test next month. dots. Finally have a permanent timetable, all teachers changed except my econs teacher! damn. she sucks. really. gp projectwork was interesting tho' my gp teacher was being overly drama. haha, but all funny. talked to us about PW, and i realised that we must read beyond words. oh yah, gp and PW are integrated into one subject in yj for those who don't know cos gp and pw are similar in many aspects as what they say. glad that my gp teacher is changed cos i'm very intimidated by the previous teacher tho' she's nice. ECONS SUCKS

friday, i'm waiting..

sunday

2005-04-03T14:26:00.000+08:00

for the past week, i've been so looking forward to sunday for church but i didn't go to church today!! bleaahh. sorrry eleanor! ahhh. didn't get to see you today. haiz. I'm still feeling tired, and there's school tomorrow. bleaaah bleaah. tired tired.

orientation sucks. i feel suffocated. stressed

2005-04-01T20:11:00.000+08:00

orientation on wed was alright. not very interesting but i guess it's alright, since i feel so dead at school. what's stupid is that they taught us only half of the mass dance because of a lack of time.

there's a so called "finale" tomorrow. it's actually orientation and it's on for TWELVE HOURS! HELLLOOOO?! 12 hours ain't a joke. i'm feeling mentally and physically exhausted for the whole week and i still have to report to school on a SATURDAY at 8.15am?! damnit. wanted to skip it but my ct is strict. argh. My yss friends are not going! argh. and plus almost everyone in my class is coming. arggghhh. i reaally need to get to know them better.

this whole week has been physically and mentally exhausting. i just feel that i'm going to have a breakdown any time. chem is still alright because i haven't had any tutorials yet. but my friend did really badly for the redox test. he scored a modest zero. yes, zero. i think i'm going to get a zero too. i did not even study chemistry for the 1st three months and they did not went through redox! damnit! what stupid test do they want?! and yes, there's Maths too. Both Maths lecture and tutorials sucks. and i don't understand! arrrghhh. Econs, it just makes me go all confuse. it's common sense yet it's so complicated! arrghh. i borrowed econs notes to copy down notes from my friend and i spent like more than an hour copying and i just decided to give up. My head was throbbing really badly. damnit. the best thing is that i have chinese spelling next week. great. i haven't had any since sec 3. i feel all so stressed up. argh. for the past week, i've been getting home late. i don't have enough sleep, tried to study but either i can't concentrate or my answers are wrong. can't wake up in the morning too. just felt sick. sick of school.

tried talking to my parents just now. told them how stressed up i am. i almost teared up. maybe i'm just too tired. i'm considering poly. arghh. i don't know. really wanna get out of singapore. friends are all slowly leaving.

this is only the second week.

sad.

2005-03-31T17:51:00.000+08:00

i'm still not adapting well in yj.
i'm still not getting along well with my classmates.
it's hard to talk to them
they choose their friends,
or at least i think so.
maybe i'm too quiet.
it's like a facade,
i'm showing someone that is not me.
i talk to them, but it's just purely classmates relationships.

school's also getting boring
lectures and tutorials are those that keep me going
but even maths and econs lectures sucks now.
always almost dozing off and i ended up not understanding
anything

friends, close friends
what have they become too?
what have i became?
am i changed or they?
at times, speechless, i'm sad.
i hope years of friendship don't end like this.

i wanna get out of s'pore. the education system seems horribly screwed.
what about cca and education? it's just all of us being forced into it.
but sadly, i can't get out of here.

i wanna shout it out loud.

yjc

2005-03-29T20:44:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, cheekiang and sweewei came to YJ! so happpyy~! I was so shocked and excited when i saw them! hahaha. it suddenly just brought back all the memories of 05a1. I WAS REALLY EXHILARATED. hahaha. i don't know why. so chatted with them and found out that cheekiang was going to appeal to yj! hahahaha. for the whole day i was feeling so bored but seeing cheekiang and sweewei made my day! :)

and today, cheekiang reported to yj! wahahaha. happy! another 05a1 joined yj. lol. yeah, and today was a much better day than yesterday because we had lectures and tutorials. for the 1st time, i'm happy and thankful that there're lectures and tutorials and it was rather good. I think that yj's teachers are kinda good and dedicated, it's only the stupid environment that makes me feel so gloomy and sad all day plus the fact that i don't talk to my classmates, it made it even worse. so yah! today was good good. teachers are good. happy. haha. anndd! i saw my primary school teacher! there was atheletic going on in yj. those kids were like running and doing stretches and stuff. yup, so i talked to her and i realised she was from yjc too! the world is this small. haha. and she aced her As. haha. erm. i meant she A-C-E-d. that means she scored A for history, C for lit and E for econs. hahahaha! but she did well for her languages. hahaa. Apparently, some of the teachers that taught her last time was still teaching in yj and yes, i heard scary stories of some teachers which i actually knew it beforehand because i heard it from my friend but it was funny to hear her say it and she still seems horrified by that certain econs teacher. haaha. I'm so glad my econs teacher is not that certain someone.

sorry for any grammar errors. heh.

2005-03-25T14:17:00.000+08:00

to 05a1,

i thought i should say a little something to you great people, even to those who might not be reading.

eunice you lamer! haha. will miss you and all of your freezing jokes. also, for being like a mother by preparing food for all of us! :)
yvonne you smallie! you make me laugh. haha. so small size and cute. will miss you and all our nonsense made during maths tutorials.
valerie same og and ct and now, we're even posted to the same school! are we fated to be together? haha. seeya around in school!
xinyi hey baby face :) will miss ya loads. heheh. really enjoy talking to you online and about our findings while blog-hopping to other blogs. heheh. interesting eh?
shuting you can sing really really well, you know. and draw well too! love having ya around.
yinghui one who's easily moved by words and songs. always so enthusiastic about ct outings, it's a blessing to have you around.
sylvia your laughter shocked me when i first saw it during lit. gonna remember it. haha. hope it's your true self yah.
clemence great that i got to know you better during the last day of school :)
siti haha, escape was fun with us screaming together.
rebecca don't be upset even if the appeal isn't successful. who knows tpjc might be good too?
shuqi emiko quanmin yixian fan ning wished i got to know you better. nice knowing ya still.
sweewei vincent cheekiang yicheng franson you made 05a1's what it is today. without you, i don't know how would 05a1 be. take care yah.
zhenhao guoming xiangyao don't see you often but will always remember the awesome and fantastic soccer match you played.
eric Mr MIA. thanks for the brownies.

graduation, by vitamin C.

And so we talked all night about the rest of our lives
Where we're gonna be when we turn 25
I keep thinking times will never change
Keep on thinking things will always be the same
But when we leave this year we won't be coming back
No more hanging out cause we're on a different track
And if you got something that you need to say
You better say it right now cause you don't have another day
Cause we're moving on and we can't slow down

These memories are playing like a film without sound
And I keep thinking of the night in June
I Didn't know much of love, but it came too soon
And There was me and you, and then it got real blue
Stay at home talkin' on the telephone and
We would get so excited, we'd get so scared
Laughing at ourselves thinking life's not fair
And this is how it feels

As we go on, we remember
All the times we had together
And as our lives change, from whatever
We will still be, friends forever
So if we get the big jobs and we make the big money
When we look back now, will that joke still be funny?
Will we still remember everything we learned in school?
Still be trying to break every single rule
Will little brainy Bobby be the stockbroker man?
Can Heather find a job that won't interfere with her tan?
I keep, I keep thinking that it's not goodbye
Keep on thinking it's a time to fly
And this is how it feels

screwed once again.

2005-03-24T19:03:00.000+08:00

my life is screwed once again. yj is sucky, boring.. no orientation, no nothing. my timetable for today is like this:

[8am-3pm] : go for lectures or tutorials of your choice
[3pm-4pm]: CT interaction and submission of subject combination forms
[i'm taking Maths, Econs and Chem]

don't come to school better right. haiz. anyway, glad to have my secondary school friends with me if not i will be really like a wondering ghost/half-dead person. went back to yss today, chatted with ms lai, mrs phua and mrs yeo for a while. ms lai was funny. hahaha. anyway, the netball court in school is so BLUE. FAKE BLUE. not nice. boohoo. but time really flies in yss! in yj, time seems to be crawling. haiz.

but yah, guess i'm slowly trying to adapt to yj. must stop comparing the difference b/w nanyang and yishun because yishun is good in its own way too. actually yj has kinda good teachers. haha. and they teach really slowly so i can understand it better and i made hannah's day. hahahaa! and if it's fated and it's all God's plan so be it.

chatted with zoe just now. something she said struck me. "we are not even in the same class in primary school yet we are still in close contact." haha, yeah. I can't believe it too. felt good! years of friendship still standing strong. hope it's the same for my secondary school friends, to be able to keep in contact and remain good friends. :)

replies to taggie

2005-03-22T23:25:00.000+08:00

heyy, i can't use the computer that often now cos my mom don't allow. bleah. anyways, i thought i might just reply to some of your taggie.

mencee: not that i don't like, it's just that sometimes i just feel so weird. ok, nvm.

dan e man: hahaha! okok, i'm just trying not to gain too much kilos in one week. haha. :) yep, will pray for re-affirmation. and yahhh, i was posted to nyjc for 1st three months. is there a problem??!

cheryl: heh, seriously don't think the appeal will be successful.

=Princess=: yah, will pray for direction :) kite-flying was FUN FUN! steamboat was even better! haha!

posting results

2005-03-22T09:18:00.000+08:00

posted to yjc. ehh? good? no good? dunno. haha.
but gonna try appealing back to nyjc. yep, bye!

exercise!

2005-03-19T20:22:00.000+08:00

gahh! hahaha. went pasir ris with my aunt to cycle! hahaha to burn off fats that i've accumulated over the past week! lol. esp after eating half a tub of ben and jerry's yummy yummy chocolate fudge brownie ice-cream yesterday night. hahaha. and after that came home to clean my table and display cabinet since i promised my mom i would clean it. hahaha, burn more fats. lol. but i hate cleaning. no choice cos mom said she would clean it on mon if i don't and i don't want her to disturb my things. bleah. hehehe.

tomorrow's sunday. bleah. don't really like church. ah. nevermind. hope tomorrow is a goodie day! =) okie, MATHS now. :(

oh oh! i'm listening to reaaally nice song! the theme song of lavender!

reaffirmation of faith

2005-03-18T12:49:00.000+08:00

received a call from a church staff just now about my reaffirmation and i guess in 2 weeks time i'm going to be reaffirmed. somehow, a part of me don't feel like re-affirming. maybe i'm having doubts about God and stuff.

Sentosa! FUN =)

2005-03-16T22:51:00.000+08:00

sentosa trip with 05A1 today!
real fun and memorable,
will be etched in my mind
for a long long time. =))

cheekiang also ended the day purrfectly.
hahaha! it was SO FUNNY!
i didn't blog in detail so read
eunice's, yicheng's or yvonne's blog!
~~will post the pics later!~~ :)

Yesterday shopping with cheryl!
bought beads and stuff to do earrings!
err, but i kinda failed at my first attempt
gonna go back to the shop to buy more wires.
bleah. help cheryl! haha.

oh yes, i'm as red as a tomato now. or rather prawn? haha

i've uploaded more in webshots..

MATHS madememad-

2005-03-14T18:49:00.000+08:00

MATHS IS MADNESS! ARGH! I DON'T UNDERSTAND SIGMA NOTATION!! GRRRR!

i'm regretting not listening during lectures. argh.

i spent the entire afternoon away doing sigma notation and i'm still not done with it. this is so great. arghhh!!

random

2005-03-13T22:00:00.000+08:00

rented a cinderella's story from the high-tech movie machine at punggol mrt station today [you need your fingerprint to access] the show was hilarious! hahahaa, the step-sisters were super funny and yeah, evil. haha, but it was still funny anyway!!

i've been thinking of designing a blog skin. heh. but how should i start going about doing it?

i am 17 but with mind like of a five yr old kid, totally clueless yet ironically, i've been here since forever. how embarrassing can i get? that's the reason why i hate going. ~~i wasted my 17 yrs of life away.~~

saturdays boredom.

2005-03-12T14:52:00.000+08:00

i conclude:
saturdays are boring days

money woes.

2005-03-10T17:36:00.000+08:00

this is the first time that i'm feeling it this way, i don't know why. why do i feel it this way?

sorry, don't mind me for writing something that you all don't understand. It's just something for me only.

okies, lesson ended pretty early today. 11.10am. can you believe it?! hahas, cos well, we didn't have ct, history, lit and pe. so instead of ending at 4.10pm today, we ended at 11.10! :):):) and math was my last lecture of the day! haha and i slept in the LT during math lecture. i just felt reaaally tired, so i gonked out within 15 mins. went taka to eat after math. felt reaaaally horrible because you know what? I had only $2.20 in my wallet. how pathetic can i be. ended up borrowing money from yvonne. and realised cheekiang's pocket money for a week is *gasp* $90! it's equivalent to a month of my pocket money! these people are so freaking rich. actually most of my classmates are rich yeah. always going to kbox, ice-skating, watching movies and eating food which i consider expensive. the feeling reaaaally isn't very good. i feel so small and poor. i still remember when i was back with weimin, xinyi and cheryl in yss, we spent really carefully on what we buy and eat. haha. i need to control how i spend my money. my dad don't earn much so i need to control. actually come to think of it, my money is all spent on neo-prints and foooood.

anyways, i digressed. we ate italian ice-cream after lunch, was reaaally good! i love tiramisu! yeah, and took neoprints with my class once agaaain. hahas, getting quite sick of taking neo-prints. slept in the mrt on the way home. didn't even realised yvonne had alighted at hougang. haha, shows how dead i am.

however, foood is good. so money is well-spent. :)

horrible tagboard!!

2005-03-09T18:45:00.000+08:00

stupid tagboard is down for like two days already! fine. so, i have decided to add a comments thingy at the bottom of the entry! yep! see that! so you people can tag at there! yay! and after editing it for 1 hour, (yes i'm stupid) i am finally done with it!! yay! :) and yup, not only is my tagboard screwed, blogspot is also screwed. I spent for the past 1 hour trying to save my template because blogspot just keeps logging off and I had to log in and log in and log in all over again. (so maybe I am not that stupid afterall. it's blogspot's fault that made me spent 1 hr here!)

nail ruined!

2005-03-07T22:12:00.000+08:00

my nails are ruined. boo. i'm supposed to have nice black nails but i ended up with dirty, charcoal black nails. :( and my itchy fingers attempted to scratch out the nail polish and now it's even worse! it's so ugly and ruined. bleah. and i feel fat now. ate alot today. roti prata in the late morning followed by beef noodles and bk cheese sticks in the afternoon. bleah bleah. i wanna get fatter (cos i'm too skinny) but not gaining extra fats at my waistline! my arms are like so skinny. why not there. dotss i can feel my skirt getting tighter. bleah bleah.

LOL! dumbest convo ever.

2005-03-06T21:47:00.000+08:00

hahaha. had the most interesting conversations today with cheryl and shengloo! I think we're not really helping you sheng loo! haha. But quite fun chatting! LOL! It's really dumb but funny. hahaha!

bloodynerdCORP says:
biotech no good
- hero. legend. sponge says:
why
[+Mag] crap says:
?? why
bloodynerdCORP says:
come out can only be ka kia
bloodynerdCORP says:
small fry

actually the conversation were much longer. but it's really long. lol. so after that I went on asking what courses in poly are big fry. okok. maybe the convo weren't all that interesting. hahaha.

[+Mag] small fry vs big fry says:
haha. imagine him being an arittect, will look so different man..
bloodynerdCORP says:
artitect?
bloodynerdCORP says:
u mean i grad with a dip with artitect??
- hero. legend. sponge says:
architect
[+Mag] small fry vs big fry says:
ahhahaah
- hero. legend. sponge says:
if u want interior design, architect better
[+Mag] small fry vs big fry says:
lol..
- hero. legend. sponge says:
is a VERY demanding job
bloodynerdCORP says:
y architect better??
- hero. legend. sponge says:
cause u can go overseas do work mah
- hero. legend. sponge says:
haha. but also dead end
[+Mag] small fry vs big fry says:
-_-!
bloodynerdCORP says:
f..k u!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
- hero. legend. sponge says:
cause now a lot of architect running out of job
[+Mag] small fry vs big fry says:
HAHAHAH@
[+Mag] small fry vs big fry says:
errmmm...hhaa
- hero. legend. sponge says:
CONCLUSION: CONSTRUCTION CANNOT DO!
bloodynerdCORP says:
u r not giving any help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bloodynerdCORP says:
argh
[+Mag] small fry vs big fry says:
HAHAHHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHA

CHERYL is not giving any help! LOL! wth. HAHA! After writing so long, she concluded that being an architect is also a dead end. LOL! She's still the same. HAHA!

upside down.

2005-03-04T18:49:00.000+08:00

i actually have lots to write, but ha, i don't feel like writing now. oh hell.

ahh, many said my class tee [4E6] looks great! hahahaha! so happy! everyone looked so intrigued by my tee. One random guy even asked " foursixers??" haha! so cool my tee! yay! lol! =) I'm reminded of 4e6 out-of-a-sudden.

All that I did was walk over
Start off by shaking your hands
That's how it went
I had a smile on my face and I sat up straight
Oh, yeah, yeah
I wanted to know you
I wanted to show you

You don't know me
Don't ignore me
You don't want me there
You just shut me out

You don't know me
Don't ignore me
If you had your way
You'd just shut me up
Make me go away

Happy 17th

2005-03-02T20:52:00.000+08:00

heyys! (doubt you're reading this) but...

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY
ELEANOR!
=)

moody, still

2005-03-01T11:31:00.000+08:00

woke up this morning, still feeling rather moody. ahh. chatted with xinyi online yesterday kind of cheered me up but i got all moody and sad again today. but it was great chatting with her i guess! hahas.

anyways, going to meet up with cheryl weihong and renhao. hope i'll feel better then. bye!

****
I'm all happy and smiley now again! :) Really glad to be out today rather than cooping up at home.

;) very happy for weihong; tho' he didn't do as well as expected, he isn't being like me- all whinny and acting so stupidly- he accepted it and he knows what he wants to study in poly and i'm very happy for him!! a nice chap. hahas.
;) also very happy for renhao too! ahh. smart guy. pity he wants to go to a poly. hahas. but i think he has found his own course too- one of designing games! it so so suit him. haha!
;) and cheryll! when are you crashing nyjc?? haha! possibility for you being in nyjc- 30% hahaha! think carefully wor!

haha. and I had fun bitching about people today! lol.

btw, if you still don't know. I scored 16 for Os. yes.

and Eleanor reminded me that despite how badly I do, God is still with me and he will always be.

down.

2005-02-28T18:38:00.000+08:00

did quite badly for it, but i guess i sort of accepted it. owells. kinda affected by everybody's moods today. some did well, some did not-so-good. felt so happy for xinyi! ah, she did super well man. her english- she improved by leaps and bounds! and esther! ah, she improved so so much for amaths. felt so happy for them. but i don't know, i'm having this mixed feelings about it that i'm laughing about it. ha, guess i'm mad. weimin and xinyi said i have gone mad. oh fine. kinda down after hearing my friend crying and some not feeling very happy and some failing some subjects. though i may say something bad about some people, but i think it really upset my mood. argh. and yah, my own results. but since i have accepted it as it is, then i shall not think too much! but i'm just scared that I can't get into ny science! I need one more point to get into ny science! WAH! so sad. I need to appeal! ah! HOPE I CAN GET INTO NY SCIENCE! pray for me.

**
MY LIFE IS SO SCREWED UP\

THOSE IDIOTIC PEOPLE
I DISLIKE THEM
BE GLAD THAT I HAVE NOT SAID ANYTHING UNKIND YET

I don't understand why must everyone judge me by whether I can get into a jc or not, by my L1R5 and how 'high' or 'low' I get and whether the jc that i go to is a 'good' or 'not-good' school. I HATE IT. I screwed up my PSLE. YES. I SCREWED IT UP. I DID HORRIBLY, THE WORST ANYONE CAN IMAGINE FOR ME TO GET INTO EXPRESS. AND NOW. I SCREWED UP 'O's. YES. I SCREWED UP. I WONDER IF I'M GOING TO SCREW UP 'A's NEXT OR MAYBE MY DIPLOMA. CONTINUE JUDGING ME. FINE.

Results-

2005-02-27T01:18:00.000+08:00

to all the peeps out there getting Os results tomorrow:

HOPE ALL TURNS OUT WELL! =)

and not to forget, 05A1 rocks!
will always remember you guys.

butterflies in my stomach

2005-02-25T18:26:00.000+08:00

darn, results out on Monday. I'm feeling the jitters. just sitting here typing about it makes me think. think if i'm going to die on Monday, be mentally dead with no mood for anything or screaming away happily with tears of joy in my eyes when i see my grades. darn. I cannot relax. Don't ask me to relax. I can't. Whenever I'm doing nothing, I will think. think about the different possibilities that could happen on Monday. think about how everyone in school will react, think about my friends and their results- happiness or sadness. think about what kind of expression my teacher will give- of a sorry and sympathetic look or of a im-happy-for-you look. think about how i'm going to tell my dad about it. think about how everyone would react to it- whether I will throw my own face, or my parents' faces if i do horribly. THINK.

Crap. get my results quick.

just praying for a 15 point to get into science in NY

Dramatic day today!

2005-02-24T20:04:00.000+08:00

hahas, this was what Yvonne, Eunice, Yinghui, Shuting and me ate yesterday. SEE THE GST AND SERVICE CHARGE! horrible right. Anyway, I ate brownie walnut topped with ice-cream! it was delicious! Yvonne said it gave a sense of warm-ness and happiness in you. I AGREE WITH HER! and it's really really good. The feeling is just there. HAHA. We all didn't really eat much of this before, so everyone was like "SO NICE!" hahahhaa. so funny sia. Yay! then went to take neoprints! hahas. So fun taking neoprints! lol! oh and there was smoke inside PS yesterday, I have no idea what happened but the smoke was really horrible. FIRE! yeah! haha okie. For more info on this, pls go to either Eunice, Shuting, Yvonne or 05A1's blog! It has a very very long entry on it! I very lazy to type it out. heh.

yep. Netball today was fun! I liked it. We played in the rain. lol. Felt so sticky and dirty and all after that. Ponned Lit tutorial. sigh. Always ponning these few days! ahh! Results out in like 3 more days.

crap/

2005-02-23T09:30:00.000+08:00

in the school library now ponning peter kellet's tutorial which horribly sucks and for your information, this school have only two history teachers (!!!) and yep, also ponning History lecture by Tan chee peng. ah whatever. I don't really like both the teachers anyway. dotss. I'm REALLY going to drop. CONFIRM. I'm going over to science I guess, even if my grades can't get me into ny science, I guess i'll go to other jcs to study science. I CAN'T STAND HISTORY for any longer.

ah. feel so bad to leave Jaren alone at aj! ahhh! I didn't know he wanted to go there early in the morning and NOT come to school today. damn. feeling so so bad now. ah. miscommunication. owells. Now i'm slowing waiting for time to crawl by to get to aj soon!! I wanna see all my friends! yesh. and have a taste of aj's stressful lifestyle there. haiz. SORRY jaren! blah.

and yeah. Sorry guys, couldn't go ice-skating with y'all. My dad told me not to go cos tonight we're having dinner at my grandparent's place. Last day of CNY. dots. so having steamboat. Have to be home early. sigh. SORRY! We plan another activity next week or something okie?

great. and quarrelled with my bro on Monday. He asked me to teach him PHYSICS like (??!!!) lor. and it's about the reflection and refraction of PRISM! HELLO??! like as if he don't know i'm not good in PHYSICS. whatsmore i'm not even learning science NOW! I gave back all what i've learnt to my teacher already. In the end, my brother got angry with me and stormed into the room throwing his calculator and book on the table. OK FINE. and my dad heard the noise and said I didn't want to teach him. DOTS.. and it makes me really wonder if I go over to sci, can I cope with it or not.. Another point to think about.

And and yesterday online everyone was like talking about Os results and those STUPID rumours and stuff. MOE shouldn't really have sent those letters out. Created such a big hooha. AND MY SINGPASS! they left out an 'E' in my name, MAGDALENE. so now it's like Magdalen. bleah. great. Have to send an email to them to ask them about it. argh.

woah. realised what I wrote today all so sadistic. ah. haiz. AJC! i wanna go..

2005-02-19T16:04:00.000+08:00

I really like this picture. It's taken in India. I got it while blog-surfing just now. don't you think it's nice? they look so happy. [Picture taken from: http://deepblackfilm.blogspot.com/]

argh

2005-02-18T19:19:00.000+08:00

SOMEONE WANTED TO STEAL MY PHONE JUST NOW! idiot! I was walking towards yjc just now and then this guy was riding his bicycle and I was holding my phone busily sms-ing my friend and the next thing I knew was that someone was grabbing my hand and attempted to take my phone! argh. But he was dumb too. He grabbed my hand instead of the phone and nearly fell off the bicycle. STUPID AND MEAN. steal my phone for what??! grrr.

and my mood wasn't already very good when THIS GUY wanted to snatch my phone. dunno why. Feeling really moody for the past few days.

CHAMPIONS!

2005-02-15T22:01:00.000+08:00

yes! 05A1 is da BEST! Besides 4e6, this is another class which i like, really. UMOJA ROCKS! they are my soccer idols! All of them played really really well!!! Though we lost to the teachers, we still came in second after them! woohooo! ahhhhh! It was a tough fight and we played well! I guess it brings us a lot more closer together. and..UMOJA consists of : zhen hao, xiangyao, guoming, yicheng, franson and emiko!

oh oh. and after all the soccer match, I was in the bus on the way home right ( like duh), and and there was this really really weird guy singing in the bus! and it's not really singing! it's like... he's mumbling to himself and sometimes he will sing really high and loud and I really don't know what he's singing! AND the thing is the people in the bus were all looking at him weirdly. ok, so I fell asleep soon after. AND when I woke up, he was still singing! and erm, the singing was kinda horrible and it's quite scary! he's really strange.

sigh. Just heard from weihong that 28 feb is the release of the 'O's as what his sister told him [Info from his sis's lecturer]. Wonder how true it is. haix. Kinda dampened my mood and reminded me of 'O's. heh. owell. I'm just feeling sad that 05a1 is going to spilt.

PISSED

2005-02-11T17:12:00.000+08:00

i'm pissed offf. damn it. why would people want my phone when i've dropped it for dunno how many times and it's all scratched and old and ARGH! I DON'T UNDERSTAND WHO ON EARTH WOULD WANT IT!??!?! The horrible part is when i called my own phone number, the person refuses to say anything but i heard his friend said something in hokkien " the phone ringing the phone ringing" or something like that! damn it! Just be kind and give it back to me! ARGH! My eyes are all red now. idiot! i have so many information inside. Phone numbers, addresses of my teachers!! ALL GONE.

argh. blame myself. no one to blame except me

i'm such a pig

2005-02-09T21:00:00.000+08:00

**edit edit**

1st day: I'm so bored at home. Went to my grandparents' house today and after that went back home. Slept for the whole late afternoon. i'm such a pig.

2nd day: decided to add the second day's happenings together with the 1st day's entry. okie, 2nd day is so much better than the 1st day! went out for the whole day! hehe:) some people came to my house. Was helping the kids to find some games to play in my comp. heh. in the end, it seems too 'chimology' for them. One turned to neopets to play and the other turned to playing chinese chess with my dad. ah well. ate loads of cny goodies today. ahh, all heaty stuff! but they're pretty good! hahhaa.

took this when I went back to yss! a reunion for us! =)